*SouthTown85

I don't even know how to start this journal entry. I guess I will start it with- Brianna, I absolutely from the deepest pit of my core, and in every bone of my body, HATE you. and I mean this entirely. I mean it to my fullest definition of hate. Just in case you don't remember-

Hate: having the ability to watch a person fall 50 stories to their death, and feel no sorrow except for the poor person who has to clean that up.

Now to my explanation of why.

You would think that I would hate you after you lost your virginity cheating on me, but no. I was willing to forgive you because you told me it was a turbulent time for you. Was I going to stay with you? no, but I forgave you.

Then I bared my soul to you. Even after all that you had put me through, I told you that I loved you and that I still wanted to be with you.

After that, there was a glimmer of hope. you said that you still think about me and that I still held a special place in your heart. We talked for a while, until I said that we "fit" together very well.

Your brother then told me that you were admitted to the ER, and being the caring, loving person that I am, I called you and your mother to ensure that you were ok. I told you to call me sometime... you still haven't called me.

Believe it or not, I am a very sensitive person. YOU just never managed to bring it out in me. You would always try to change me way too much for me to be willing to show your anything other than my rough exterior. You didn't allow me to be myself EVER and because of that, I just became more coarse.

Now, the reason I hate you has something to do with the subject of this entry. That one phrase "I love you baby" is what sent me on a inner rage that made me have to leave the house for a good amount of time. Now there are multiple reasons why I hate you for this

1. you didn't say it to me- that's semi-acceptable considering we are not dating

2. you never called me baby.

3. This is what proved that you were just out to toy with my emotions as much as you possibly can. This is proof that you are an evil person who was bent on ruining me.


In conclusion, I would like to say that after I suspected that you had cheated on me, I had sex with four women. All of which were absolutely wonderful. As a matter of fact, I had met one woman that weekend and had sex with her in her sixteen year old sister's bed... then in the living room, then her car. I never wanted to tell you that because I didn't want to hurt you, but who gives a flying fucking shit now.

P.S. You are the worst person ever. Your faith in your religious deity is nothing but a sham to give you a reason to preach at people. Don't use the "god is watching" excuse. If you were a true Christian, you wouldn't have lost your virginity in sin.